I'm a star trek villian

My hair is returning, but not in an even or predictable way.  Only the inner halves of my eyebrows have really gotten into gear, and they are hella slanted in a very cousin-to-TOS-Vulcan look. Having almost all the follicles(?) on my arms and legs reactivate at about the same time but not grow quickly means I look like I have goosebumps for days.  The head hair is returning in a patchy, mange-like fashion, and appears to be more of a charcoal color than brunette (I dig the color, actually).  One of the parts that hasn't really started growing in is a stripe right down the center of my head, kind of reverse mohawk, and I really don't feel the need to memorialize that image for posterity.

The mustache that I hate? Growing in evenly and at full force. Ugh.

Radiation continues to be almost symptom-free, which makes me antsy to start the next phrase of treatment ASAP, because the complete lack of "Did it die or not" information is driving me mad, and they aren't going to do scans in the middle of treatment.

We bought pre-made everything for Turkey and Pie Day possible, but had to make the pies because celiac, and managed to mess up both of them. Oh well. I am going to try and made fudge from the leftover ingredients (evaporated milk from the pumpkin pie, chocolate cihps from the French Silk.)

I'm re-reading the Fraction/Aja run of Hawkeye (My Life as a Weapon), because it is awesome, and because clearly they have started doing work on the tv series, which we know because Jeremy Renner posted time capture video of them taking a head mold of him. The fandom is very hopeful that this means they are finally doing something with Hawkeye's canonical hearing loss.

(Seriously, if you have something like Hoopla that lets you borrow e-book versions of comics through your library, check it out.  One issue is told entirely from the perspective of the dog, and the drawing style isn't that hyper-muscled thing so many Marvel comics are drawn with, and it's what happens when he *isn't* Avenging, like a slice of life with, you know, archers trying to save their neighborhood from crime lords.)

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Aspiring to Hulk-ness

Radiation started today, and will be every week day until mid-December.  Not enough rads to make me into a super-soldier-monster, though.  It is less fuss than chemo, and whatever side effects there are won't kick in immediately, apparently.

It did involve my boobs getting drawn on with crayola markers and then photographed, but in a much less entertaining way that you'd think without the medical context.

Dan is currently suffering through finals, which means in the middle of all our current world stress and sick parent stress, he's having to make project about Leukemia (biology) and WW2 with an emphasis on Germnay and the Holocaust (history).  I wish I could hug his brain. This entry was originally posted at https://jeliza.dreamwidth.org/1105433.html. Please comment there using OpenID.


I accidentally did a major bit of cleaning (and throwing out) on the 1st day of "National Clean Your Home Month" (aka Salty Pirates) which is a somewhat Nanowrimo-esque thing about doing a little bit of cleaning every day.

I found 5 nail clippers in the same (not bathroom) drawer, and chocolate too old to be eaten (*has a sad*)

I'm going to attempt it, on the theory that even if some days all I can do is 5 minutes, that will still feel good.

What this is actually in service of is hanging up some heavy velvet curtains against one of the cement walls my bed is next to and see if that makes my room a tiny bit less of an icebox. Also, removing piles that the shrew who occasionally visits can hide in, since I would prefer it live *outside* instead of roaming the downstairs floor.

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catchy, yet dark

I'm sitting with Dan as he does an assignment on WW1 weaponry which means Zevon's Roland the Headless Thompson Gunner is stuck in my head.

For the complete cynical bastard commentary experience, I recommend following this up with Lawyers, Gus and Money and The Envoy.

Talking about the development and significance of machine guns and poison gases just makes me despair for humanity.

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small stabby things

Today was the intro to radiation appointment - so no actual radiation, but CT scans and breathing exercises and now I have 4 dots tattoed on me for calibration. I did not do that well with the kind of pain involved on the tattoo-ing front, which makes the tat I've been waiting to do for 15 years even less likely. And one is dead center in my cleavage like a black freckle.

Expected side effects are skin damage (like a sun burn) and .. wait for it ... Fatigue!  Ugh. I guess I should try to get as much as possible done in the 2 weeks before treatment actually starts. This entry was originally posted at https://jeliza.dreamwidth.org/1104451.html. Please comment there using OpenID.

progress and regress

The nausea and fatigue is definitely lessening (I actually cleaned yesterday! Woo!) and radiation, which starts soon, doesn't usually have that side effect.

On the other hand, covid infections in New Mexico have had a sudden massive spike, and since we don't yet know how long immunity lasts, R is definitely not coming home for Christmas, which sucks. This entry was originally posted at https://jeliza.dreamwidth.org/1104266.html. Please comment there using OpenID.

so many naps

Still massively fatigued, and the nausea meds I didn't need through even the "hardcore" initial treatment are suddenly in play.  I guess the side effects have decided to really revel in the accumulation.

I keep being mad at myself for not getting things like cleaning or cooking done, and then I attempt to stand up for more than 10 minutes and need to lie down for an hour to recover.

For entertainment, [personal profile] javagoth and I have started simul-watching the new season of Bake-Off, which greatly improves the experience. I'm not loving the new host, but maybe he'll settle into things as it goes on.

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I took a massive post-chemo nap, ate ridiculous amounts of dessert, and since I was really enjoying my reading decided "hey, it's Friday night, staying up until 2 reading is no biggie"

If you a reading this the day of posting, or noticed the timestamp you can probably predict just how wrecked I was when the alarm to get the kids up to school went off. This entry was originally posted at https://jeliza.dreamwidth.org/1103618.html. Please comment there using OpenID.